Performance to camera
Passage Del Credit, Gothic Quarter, Barcelona, Spain
Photographs by Andrea Torres Balaguer
'Holding the dead shell to my soft middle I stand in stillness, sending a cellular awareness into my cervical tissues. After a duration, I take a lighter from my pocket, and ignite the cotton wool that is stuffed inside the shell. The wool flames orange and burns, until the white wool gradually turns black. Each time the flame diminishes, I blow on the fire to stoke and prolong it. Dense smoke is produced, and tiny embers float upwards from the shell, carried by the air.
My face becomes hot, and risks being burned. I inhale smoke through my nose and mouth. My throat becomes dry, my breathing becomes choked. The smoke stings my eyes, causing them to fill with water and stream. The mascara on my eyelashes, deliberately worn, runs in black lines down my cheeks, producing (artificial) tears.'
Extract from article 'Boll: Curating affective knowledge in/ as performance.'
(Gray, V, Repertorio, 2016)
Forces: cervical operation; severe grade abnormal cells; left side cervix; Loop Electrosurgical Excision procedure; electrical wire loop; fire; electrical current; womb; watery eyes; seashell harvesting; living animals die inside due to drying out; scraping off of remaining flesh and scaly growth; cutting away of cervical tissue; biopsy; cauterization of cervical tissue; numbness; cramping; speculum; flame; cotton wool; mascara; The Cure; burning; phantom pain; specimen; stinging dry eyes; pre-cancerous; local anaesthetic; blistering; synaesthesia; charred tissue; gnawing; endoscope; smoke